Im sitting here tonight and thinking back on the day and I can't help but smile. I am blessed. I don't know many people who often, on an uneventful, ordainary day, think to themselves "I am blessed." I know I don't often enough. Today, for the smallest of reasons, I can smile deeply knowing I had people who care for me think of me today. I have friends I haven't seen for far to long share my excitment to see them again. I firmed up plans to go back 'home" and visit next week! I recieved an email from my baby sister that contained the most adorable, slobbery, toothless smile of my perfect nephew. My little man is growing up so fast and I cannot wait to kiss those little cheeks! This of course lead me to think of my little princess Avah Karen, and even though tears fill my eyes because I miss her so much, I know I am blessed to have to love. I came home to my youngest and his new best friend "camping" in the bed of my truck (using all my pillows and blankets- freshly washed) dirty, holding the truck keys and a loaf of bread- smiling and I am proud and blessed. My oldest son recited his entire science lesson and I saw him ten years from now in college and again teaching a class of his own years latter, I am proud and blessed. My dad called me today and I haven't talked to him for months, I am blessed. He cried and told me how much he loves me and how proud of me he is, I am blessed. I needed to hear those words today. I needed to know people care today. God provided that support for me, I am blessed. My husband rush in from work and lites up when he sees me and kisses me hello and I know I am blessed.
I heard a lady say "Remove the negate thoughts from conversation and positive ones will remain." I am applying that to my life from now on. I have been through the most challenging and painful times in my life over the past five years and I am ready to start living for tomorrow instead of in the shadow of yesterday. I only have tomorrow to change the future, right?
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